complaints complains.

My gmail is in freaking sanskrit???

My monthly budgetting is damn screwed up????

I am always broke lah!!

And people are always telling me weird things. and i'm very the dense can!!??

Time for lunch. i need to redo my monthly budgetting. its screwed. like totally.

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I like to edit and add on instead of creating a new post when i've got stuff to write.

Been a horribly unproductive day.. slept slept slept.. and read newsweek.. look at ibook.. plan the week.. called tennis coach.. church.. nothing much.

i didn't go for session today. Though one of my new year resolutions was to be more involved. i am so sorry.. till date.. i only attended one x community activity. i promise i'll perform better next week. : (

The truth is.. its tough to balance. i mean.. it is only recently that i once again picked up the spirit and went full speed ahead (erm.. actually.. about a year to be precise).. or the spirit picked me up.. whatever the case..

Any o how.. i suddenly have the craving to eat hae bee hiam and play age of empires.. and if the craving goes on. i may go crazy.

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The idea is..

You never really know what you are doing.. the decisions you make

They almost seem insane to the other person.

Embarassment is something people want to avoid. People get embarassed at everything. and they don't like it.

I don't really care less.

Its especially ok if its learning for the better. no hard feelings.

when the hell did PASSIONATE mean SEXUAL LOVE????????? madness.

Yes i know its not me.

It is weird isn't it? Me complaining about shopping. I somehow simply DID NOT enjoy that sjort 2 odd hour shopping trip with Ray, zy, and ivan.

The reason could not have been that i'm not at all near close to zy and ivan.. but rather..

I dunno. It seemed. Out of my league.

Not that the clothes were not my taste.. they were!

But it seemed. Detached. Odd. wwweeeirded out.

THen then.. i went to chinatown with my mum to do the CNY shopping stuff.

It was horrible. The crowds were mad. and I ran into Staff Ivan. hahaa.. with his wife. and kid.

And i ran into several other people there too.. how odd. Chinatown so big. so many people.. yet ran into people i knew.

On the way home.. i thought about the words that people rubbed off me.. I am a purveyor of words, and i too form several patois like words as a form of apt description to things.

These words include:

Saying ALRIGHT in the (hotel) wing way, Al-Right..

Anal.

Anal Retentive.

The most obvious one is Anal. Even S3 is using it now.


I find that sometimes. i'm near cold. icey-cold to people.. I'm not always like that i assure you.. but sometimes. i just feel like being an ice king.

cus its very tiring to think of all the things to say.. and be all friendly and nice.. and being conscious of your image and everything.. and its just easier to be icey cold.

And its been a long time since i had a picture post.. cus theres nothing much to take pictures of anyway.

Its a little difficult somtimes, but we can manage.

I was the safety offr for COL Koh on tuesday.. and Ravish was the assistant..

During zeroing and grouping, COL koh asked ravish.. where do i aim on the target? (refering to the canadian bull target)

Ravish happily pointed at the butt area.. and said.. Sir, you aim there.

It was the most hilarious thing that happened that day as i recounted the incident to all the other officers.. haha..

Well.. you've got to go for range before you understand what the joke is about.

Other things include... CPT Tan carrying Mdm Eileen's Teddy bear from her car with him and walking a considerable distance before running back to the car exclaiming.. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW COME YOUR BEAR FOLLOW ME!!!!

we were really tired you see..

Been a really really tiring week trying to do everything and please everybody and get my lazy ass to do work...

tired. and overly-sensitive.

Clement (the neighbour) says i'm very noisy. when? where got? he said the last thing he remembered was my voice before he fell asleep in the cab. like hello? i was yakking away with youzong whom i had not seen in a long long time??

I almost feeel horrendous about the poor trg resource response from my own department. so much so i've decided to take a personal interest in every single damn thing now to make sure everything goes slowly. all this for a penny.

dun want to think so much. its going to be a lovely weekend with loads of books and nice people.

i really need a dosage of nice people. Just had a horrible conversation with a very disgruntled person who seems to not like anybody. horrible....

Went to visit weilee today.. the guy in DB.. and i think i was abit too talkative. talk talk talk talk talk about everything.. i think he must be wondering.. why this officer got so much to say one huh?

haha.. i was just concerned.

Anyway.. while he was in civil remand, he had kind of converted to catholicism through the good instruction and counsel of a RC prison ministry counsellor. Praise G-d! i was so happy when i heard that.. so i started talking to him about his faith, and encouraging him to not give up his faith, and keep on going!

i told him that my favourite books were Job and II Corinthians cus they teach me alot about not demanding things from G-d, and also about leaving life to G-d's hands.. and i wanted him to feel that love from G-d too.

i hope he really reads II corithians.. i want to go visit him next month. no matter what.

I wrote a mail to RC prison ministry to ask them if they could help me locate the counsellor who instructed wei lee.. that would be good because, with the counsellor's help, maybe we can help him even more to advance in his faith and also make him an even better person (although he's already damn good now).

I think life has certainly been unfair to him, and many others.. but.. certainly, these are only momentary afflictions.. we all only want to acheive one end state, to accept and receive Jesus as our saviour, and with the heavenly hosts join him in the kingdom of G-d.

why bother about all these sad things? nobody these days are truly happy about who they are, and where they are.. they're always disgruntled about something. Not enough money, poor relationships with people, hate their jobs, hate their family, etc etc etc. sad.

i just tell myself i have no time for all these.. tired. to retire to bed. its only 2234!!! hahaa.. precedence!