And i don't know what to say.

There was this silence, the kind of silence that birds escape, and bees flee. The kind of silence that animals can only run and seek refuge in the light of the glorious rays.

There was this stump. A tree stump that the pied piper sat on. A beam of sunlight, broke through the canopy, like music through silence, and light through darkness.

And it all comes crashing down.

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I cannot describe how much anger and and hatred i have towards this superior i have in my unit. It has developed to such a point in the past week that i contemplated just leaving, instead of staying on to help out for the next few months.

I felt less then motivated to work. i dreaded changing into my uniform. I never felt like this before.

All my life, in school, in my earlier days in the army, i've never met a more difficult, and erratic boss who exercises his maximum ineptness in social communication skills that makes him look affront.

I believe he practices biasness to the point that it exceeds the definition of hypocrisy. It isn't mere hypocrisy and biasness, it has developed, in my opinion, into a form of human rights degradation, and a flaw in our profession.

I only want to get my job done. be gone.

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I could have slip disc. I hope not.

Spoke to Dr wee today.. he said it could be some gel squishing out of my spinal cord pressing on my nerves or some shit controlling pain and stuff.. therefore the sharp pain i've experienced for the past week. It hurts very badly.


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Nothing happy or nice to say. shites.
life farking sucks.

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I said to staff ivan the other night while watching the men fall in.. and the specs staying up late to torture the men.. "I'm glad i'm a staff officer"

i sure am glad i am.

and he replied: "i wouldn't want to do your job"

I could only smile in appreciation.