A pin in the needle box.

Your skin color, your hair, your lingua franca. You. You are one of us, a marked person, of nationality, of race, and of origin.

You inhale the sweet air, and look up the towering blocks of flats. A multi national community lives here, you joked to yourself. A picture of flags, made of T-shirts, and skirts, undies and bags. All in a myriad of colors.

You walk down the once familliar lanes, and you could still remember, the faces of the old people, and their scents. The loud conversations they used to have.

There were pictures of these faces still, but they're somewhat, different. Those you remembered weren't there anymore.

You thought you were home. But they didn't know you. You thought you would feel most comfortable here, but you could find your bed.

You thought you'd see what you know, or knew. But you know nothing now.

You're only another person on the street. When will you be home?

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I watched a Chinese play last night. I'm not going to say Mandarin like all the other evil whites from the western world do, because its actually derogatory, fyi.

It was called, a stranger at home. And yes, it inspired the above written stanzas.

It was blardy good. But my lack of chinese vocabulary caused me to trip over listening to their almighty cheemalogical dialogues. haha.. But i knew inside tha tit was beautiful.

I wanted to re-read the english poems that i have.. A gift from a dear friend long ago, when i was still studying in Cyprus. A Collection of Great Britain's Poets, by Black.

Hrmph.

Uh oh..

Something is wrong.

I was paid HALF of what I'm supposed to get from MOE. Something's really wrong. I am paid only 4.5 days, when its supposed to be 8 days from 16 to 26. And its really off.

I was so freaked out when i saw my bank account!!!

The damn thing is, I can't contact anyone till monday, cus as usual, all public instituitions only work 5 days. Sigh, we've got a lazy nation too! : (

I broke the whole, "must save money" mood today..

I bought a pair of tennis shoes, re-strung my racquet, and bought a very chic silver bangle. Heh. oops.

There were so many darn nice things i wanted to get from orchard while i was there too. : P But had to resist.

Was at starbucks, and had this little sudden inspiration to work there. The people looked smiley and happy.. it can't be that bad! haha.

I'm quite peeved over the pay thing. They'd better had a good explanation over what happened to the other half of my pay!! : (

Its rather ridiculous. I worked 8 days, they better pay me for 8 days. and its 8 days properly accounted for.

And steven, I do not have a hot ass. I wish I did. I saw another hot ass on the streets today. sigh. when will i ever get my own hot ass. heh.

And. i ran into melanie. the netball girl. And she said oh my. haha

The first time, in a million years, and never again.

I went to the dentist's today. My gum was freaking sore, and i believed it was my wisdom tooth that was causing the problem.

So i made an appointment and trudged out to the clinic 5 bus stops away, and had my teeth checked out.

And so it seems, the wisdom tooth on the top right side was growing the wrong way,a nd it was causing all the pain!Argh. And we've got to get it out. I was infected or something.

* Disclaimer * The following is rather descriptive. Do not read it if you're a queasy person.

The doc jabbed me with some anaesthesia and assured me it won't hurt. Well i'm sure it wouldn't have hurt, if he didn't jab and re-jab, jab and re-jab, and force a large amount of that pungent stuff, so much so it squirted out of my gums. Ow. that hurt.

Again, he reassured me the extraction wouldn't hurt. Believing that cost, was a big factor in my life now, i decided to trust him.

He used this big chisel like tool, jammed the tool on my tooth, and used his fingers to pry my mouth open, and started forcefully pushing the tooth out of place. It was like as if he was chiseling an odd piece of rock, or prying a nut open, a very hard nut.

After that, he used this horrible looking plier like thing, and slowly wiggled my tooth out of the gum.

It felt really sore, and weird.

When the tooth came out, i was so disgusted by its size, and its monstrosity, i decided to keep it.

There were still pieces of gum remnant on it.. and the roots are like HUGE and growing in all sorts of direction like a coral gone wrong.

Now, 3 hours after the extraction, the worst of the pain is over, but hell its still sore. Oww.

And now. For the medication.

I'm taking valium to sleep tonight. : P

At least it was cheap, 100 for everything.

sigh.

Jumping buns and hopping buttocks.

Just watched "So you think you can dance".

Blake McGrath has a freaking hot ass. And when a guy says that another guy has a hot ass. He really has a HOT ass.

Its like. Hot. totally.

And he can dance.

But for your information, Nick Lazarini.. that himbo.. was the one who won the damn competition. Oh wells.

He doesn't have a hot ass.

I want a hot ass too!!

Too bored from doing nothing all day. Spent the morning at tennis. Then school. THen came home to swim the whole damn afternoon away. What a dread.

At least i got the damn school workplan and can workout for myself when i can go and get my entry clearance for UK done, and when to go for a WELL DESERVED holiday! : D

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Its always the same thing all over.

When i was watching Lost season 1 on DVD, i was thinking to myself.. what would life be like after i finish the season? I started panicking. Then came season 2.. and the same question arose, and i had the same reaction. Then came Da Chang Jin, and the same damn shit happened.

Now. I give up. No more serial dramas. I'm becoming an addict. Lost, Despo housewives, DCJs whatever.

I can't wait to get my arse over to UK! yay.

I have a home!

I spent the whole afternoon flipping through the accomodations brochure, and the city map, and the internation student's brochure looking for a nice hall to live in on site.

So.. the prerequisites were pretty simple:

1) Must not be a slum
2) Must be walking distance to school.
3) Catholic Church nearby
4) Sports facilities
5) preferbably 35 weeks let
6) el cheapo
7) ethernet
8) Not too many chinese

ok.. on point number 8, it was practically undecidable.. since. I AM A BLARDY CHINESE. which means that i THINK LIKE ONE, and thus, if i were to choose a hall... it prolly be filled with chinese who think like me too. At least they're catholics. hahaha

So.. i came up with 3 choices, and this is what i came up with! yay. i hope i don't get the rooms that face the rail though. i hate noise pollution.

Anyway.. its like 700m from school and 850m from a catholic church! i can practically walk there EVERYDAY! yay. AND.. its close to the city centre too!

So. yeah. Already sent in the application. And i shall wait. wait. wait. i'll probably get my choice.

now.. i just have to wait for the confirmation letter from the university, and get my entry clearence done, and get my ISIC... and voila. i'm done. all i've to do is to sit, wait and pack.. and i'm off! to UK!

Its really weird. After more then 4 years of dreaming, it has finally come true. I'm going to UK to study after 4 years of thinking, planning, discerning. Sigh. Oh how i've waited for this day, and its only another 3 more months.

: )