Went to candy empire yesterday, and spent 138 bucks there. Insane. I never bought so much sweet stuff in my life. Haha..
Then went for dinner at Pow Sing's with lips nic lit thomas jy fish and lit, and Mrs Low joined us. How nice. Haha.. but i feel so old. When we left SAS, Caitlin was just born. and now, she's 4 going on 5, and Joshua is 8. sigh. how time flies.
We've known each other for like what? 9 to 14 years notwithstanding. Sigh.
Just had community AGM. Tired. Totally. But i don't feel like sleeping. sigh. Dunno why i'm sighing also.
During AGM.. i said that we also had to think about the kids who are too old for YV and too young for MSC.. for example... Basil (patting on melch's back) and his gay friend. which led to Melch screaming: " MY BROTHER DOESN'T HAVE GAY FRIENDS!!". i meant Alphonsus deary. haha.. Give him a few glasses of champagne, and he'll forget everything (give me a few more.. and i'll be in heaven).
Why am I Alvin's retarded younger brother. Why?
I just read a few of my student's blogs. They're really stupendous. Here's a direct quote:
" I saw Mr Lin with a ring on his left ring finger, so I asked him if he was married, and he said yes! So i ran to XXX (name censored) and told her!!! ...And XXX at the next PE lesson claimed that it was a key ring with keys on it!!"
wow. my students are so stupid. Its a real ring you dumbos. Its a Rosarium et Circularium (hope i got that spelt correctly). A rosary ring. my devotion to the BVM thankyouverymuch.
Singapore Idol is giving me a very bad headache. ow.
Tommorow's another insane day.. church in the morning, session, tuition, then pick mummy up from the airport. The car's mine for the day. Yay.. so can have dinner with mummy... then erm.. go supper? i dunno.
Supposed to go out for dinner tonight actually.. but oh well.. too tired. No car. bad timing. Lazy. sleepy. messy room. brain dead from AGM. All these combined factors lead to me going home to loon.
Thankfully, this week's quite a light week.. LISS + Lakehouse on monday.. Sports carnival, Sharing and tuition on tuesday. National day and talk on community living at OLPS on wednesday. OFF DAY ON THURSDAY ALLELUIA! (we should go JB man). and Friday got nothing on. Saturday got SSSM gathering. and round the block to sunday again.
Must thank the Lord for the abundant blessings He has given us in the past week.. And also.. thank him for effecting change within the community.. And also.. thank the BVM for interceding for us. : D
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
In your strength will I break through Lord!
I'm in a pensive mood. Alternating between the dichotomised moods that I have. It feels weird. This whole spirituality thing.
A whole new dimension of reflective meditation and prayer emerge from the past few weeks of pensive meditation. On my way home. For some weird reason, I could not stop praying, and I could not stop singing Complete.
I felt happy.
I spoke to my employer today.. She's a cradle Catholic. She shared with me how she feels about the church now, and I shared with her my take on the Church. That it is a human organisation that is riddled with sin and errors, but it is in these errors that we strive even harder to seek a pure heart, so that we can see God. It is absolutely because of all these sins and errors that the blood covenant was made by Jesus, for our salvation. And being Catholic meant that we embrace all our faults, and lift them up to the Lord, and have that great faith, and trust that He will grant us the grace to desire Justice and Righteousness.
In moments when we feel void and empty, we must always remember that God calls us to be Faithful, and not sucessful.
A whole new dimension of reflective meditation and prayer emerge from the past few weeks of pensive meditation. On my way home. For some weird reason, I could not stop praying, and I could not stop singing Complete.
I felt happy.
I spoke to my employer today.. She's a cradle Catholic. She shared with me how she feels about the church now, and I shared with her my take on the Church. That it is a human organisation that is riddled with sin and errors, but it is in these errors that we strive even harder to seek a pure heart, so that we can see God. It is absolutely because of all these sins and errors that the blood covenant was made by Jesus, for our salvation. And being Catholic meant that we embrace all our faults, and lift them up to the Lord, and have that great faith, and trust that He will grant us the grace to desire Justice and Righteousness.
In moments when we feel void and empty, we must always remember that God calls us to be Faithful, and not sucessful.
Monday, July 31, 2006
One of those 1+1-1+1-1 days.
I broke my crucifix chain.... I always remove it when I shower.. and it broke today. : (
Did not go for LISS today.. Decided that a Spiritual Work of Mercy had precedence over my own spiritual growth. So.. went for Kendrick's mum's wake, and prayed the wake service and rosary for her.
Rummaged through some old bags and found 4 gems. 1 retro Fila shirt, 1 Lacoste retro polo, 1 Lacoste retro jacket, and a SIA foldable bag thats absolutely gorgeous. They were all fine pieces.. and my mother wanted to throw them away. Thank goodness i'm nosy. : ) New clothes without cost! Yay.
Identified the Laptop I wanted and told Alvin. Yay. Can't wait for my new laptop. : )
Had a sub-horrible day at school today. Had to deal with a long outstanding affront girl with a really bad attitude and 3 girls who disobeyed my instructions. And I was so jaded I didn't even have the energy to scold them or even be angry. Oh gosh. : (
I'm quite upset over my crucifix chain. Argh. : ((((
Oh yes. Told Sr Dot about my wish to go stay at the carmelite house for my own recollection and retreat.. and asked her to help me contact Fr John and see how. Its something that I've been wanting to do for a long long time. I don't think I ever got the courage to do it. But since now, the opportunity awaits, and the invitation has been doled out. We might as well check it out? The question on whether or not I will become a priest.. the answer is definitely a No. I don't think i'm cut out or called to lead a consecrated live of Poverty Chastity and Obedience. Surely, we all have to live by these 3 virtues, but I can't do it the way priests do. To handle the Eucharist!???? Surely i'm not worthy.
Cheehui thinks I could be the next pope if i become a priest. mad woman.
THen you'll have pictures of The Holy Father, Pope Job I hanging at all Catholic schools, churches and Instituitions. I'll make it a funny one. And i'll make jokes compulsory in all Homilies. Oh yes.. i'll ban Superman films in the Vatican, persecute Dan Brown, and make Bush drown in his own pee.
Seee.. thats why I cannot be a priest.
Did not go for LISS today.. Decided that a Spiritual Work of Mercy had precedence over my own spiritual growth. So.. went for Kendrick's mum's wake, and prayed the wake service and rosary for her.
Rummaged through some old bags and found 4 gems. 1 retro Fila shirt, 1 Lacoste retro polo, 1 Lacoste retro jacket, and a SIA foldable bag thats absolutely gorgeous. They were all fine pieces.. and my mother wanted to throw them away. Thank goodness i'm nosy. : ) New clothes without cost! Yay.
Identified the Laptop I wanted and told Alvin. Yay. Can't wait for my new laptop. : )
Had a sub-horrible day at school today. Had to deal with a long outstanding affront girl with a really bad attitude and 3 girls who disobeyed my instructions. And I was so jaded I didn't even have the energy to scold them or even be angry. Oh gosh. : (
I'm quite upset over my crucifix chain. Argh. : ((((
Oh yes. Told Sr Dot about my wish to go stay at the carmelite house for my own recollection and retreat.. and asked her to help me contact Fr John and see how. Its something that I've been wanting to do for a long long time. I don't think I ever got the courage to do it. But since now, the opportunity awaits, and the invitation has been doled out. We might as well check it out? The question on whether or not I will become a priest.. the answer is definitely a No. I don't think i'm cut out or called to lead a consecrated live of Poverty Chastity and Obedience. Surely, we all have to live by these 3 virtues, but I can't do it the way priests do. To handle the Eucharist!???? Surely i'm not worthy.
Cheehui thinks I could be the next pope if i become a priest. mad woman.
THen you'll have pictures of The Holy Father, Pope Job I hanging at all Catholic schools, churches and Instituitions. I'll make it a funny one. And i'll make jokes compulsory in all Homilies. Oh yes.. i'll ban Superman films in the Vatican, persecute Dan Brown, and make Bush drown in his own pee.
Seee.. thats why I cannot be a priest.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
I can't sleep with a heavy heart.
I don't know how to let my thoughts materialise into words.
I can't seem to put a finger on the exact feeling I have now.
I cannot see where the light at the end of the tunnel is.
My mind contradicts my heart.
My thoughts are clouded and pained.
I don't know. I need silence.
And now, Your invitation seems so tempting. So delicious. So wonderfully refreshing. And I know that I can Trust In You.
There are 2 things that are constant in our lives. 1 is the Love of God, and the other is change. And we experience change everyday, whether we like it or not. And whether or not, we can live up to the changes is another matter altogether.
At least we can always fall back on the first constant.
I don't know what I am saying. Or maybe I don't want to.
I can't seem to put a finger on the exact feeling I have now.
I cannot see where the light at the end of the tunnel is.
My mind contradicts my heart.
My thoughts are clouded and pained.
I don't know. I need silence.
And now, Your invitation seems so tempting. So delicious. So wonderfully refreshing. And I know that I can Trust In You.
There are 2 things that are constant in our lives. 1 is the Love of God, and the other is change. And we experience change everyday, whether we like it or not. And whether or not, we can live up to the changes is another matter altogether.
At least we can always fall back on the first constant.
I don't know what I am saying. Or maybe I don't want to.
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